It's been an interesting week at the MP. J and I both fought our way through colds, he made some decisions about personal/professional development, and I managed to find myself on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for some reason or another. Though he grumbled and I fussed, we did manage to notice that the same bible scripture popped into our lives several times. Remember when I shared in January about how God is a whsiper, if we would only listen for it? I think that today (after only three or four reminders this week), I finally heard him.
25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifeb?
28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
It's hard for me to not be in control--of my job, my relationships, my emotions. I plan everything out, and I avoid situations that I cannot plan out (or at least role play in my mind before-hand). What is interesting to me about this passage, though, is that it doesn't tell me I can't plan or have some control (which is what I've been overloading on this week). What it says, is not to worry about it.
I know this is crazy, but I've just never thought about it that way. Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. I've talked about the trouble I have with faith, and I think this is just another symptom of my troubles. Something to work on...